Constant Inconscient Battle

Love is a distant thought when we are merely trying to make ends meet….

But whatever one meant by that, I fail to understand what the ends that are suppose to meet are and where are they??

With Mcdonalds and KFCs making noticeable gastronomic inroads into our lives’ periphery, our tastebuds getting accustomed to lovin’ finger lickin’ French fries and burgers- the ever growing waistline is making the waist belt ends difficult to meet….
Does the speaker refer to this end meeting when love seemed some miles away to him???

The other day around the mid of March a friend and comrade mentioned that he was due for a promotion this year but the end of the hierarchy hari sadoo refused to meet and see the point
Again I was made to ponder as to why the gap in the ends. But was this what the speaker wanted to indicate??

I still don’t feel certain. Then I happen to come across this housemaid in my locality the other day looking for a job. She mentioned that she otherwise hails from a reasonably well off family but the circumstances were forcing her to scourge for work. To my enquiry as to what these circumstances were she quite nonchalantly replied that on one hand she has raised to grown up children who fetched for themselves and on the other a cancer ailing husband. The children refused to meet the rising medical expenses that were essential to keep the dying man living for a few more days.

Ends not meeting?? Possibly yes probably no…

He had mentioned, “Love was a distant thought…
What has love got to do with ends?? Didn’t someone say that Love went around in a circle? Where there is no beginning & where there is no end. Then how on earth are we trying to make the ends meet to establish the sanctum of this whole damn thing called LOVE.


These screwing brewing things called love or the powerful thing that promises to keep us alive… Whatever that might be is another question, but is it a question of survival or decay?

Then I finally met Mr. X or whatsoever his name was & he spoke about Life and Death. He spoke about the destiny and the pre-planned nature of our existence here in the confines of our physical bodies. And we together vehemently argued the validity of what he said & meant.

In the middle of our verbal strife we arrived at a situation where we debated the differences in mortals. The difference that are naturally present and the difference that we erect in our lifetimes. The difference & gap that arouse out of our selfish agendas, self-effacing actions & self defending counter measures.
Bloody we all think of I, Me, Myself & Mine whereas the ideal is said to be us, ourselves & ours.

This is where it came a full circle. And this is where the ends meet & love takes over. I assume that the speaker meant this coz I feel this is true reason why all other ends don’t meet.

From the waistlines to professional trajectories, to parents & child relationship anywhere you go life’s just puts one blatant question in your face… Whom are you thinking about?? Who concerns you & why?? And more importantly the staring reality is best summed up in one single question??
Who really do you think is losing out……….. YOU or US??

As the belief gets firmer...............

Life is not tricky, I am.
You dont need to change, I wont.
Ignore me, I cant handle you.
Decieve me, I cannot trust you.
Tie me down, the wind kills me.
Neglect me, the attention breeds me.
Pretend to care, and I will love you.
Leave me by myself and I will let you go.
If you ever turn back, I will still be there.
Not waiting, or wishing. Watching you reunite with your destiny.
And then, I will be gone to make my own.